1 week already?

Hard to believe that they are a week old already?



The reality is, they have a few more weeks, but the other reality is....I can put on my own pants without help!!! As they get stronger, so do I.

Everytime we go and see them I'm still amazed that they belong to me. It's hard to only be able to hold them once a day. Last night we got over an hour, which we don't get every night. When I was there during the day, Gavin was throwing a fit because he was hungry, and what can I do? Stick my hand through the opening and TRY to comfort him......breaks your heart. Had that been a week ago, or even Monday, I would have started to cry....but for now this is my reality.

There is no blame for where they are, it's just how it is. I have to understand that too. My doctor and the nurses have told me that I did a GREAT job, but somedays that is hard to believe as I stare at my kids through plexiglass and unable to cuddle them when I want. Everyday gets easier in the "guilt" department, but as I see them get stronger and gain weight (both above birth weight now) and see their feedings increase, I get hopeful that they will be home sooner rather than later.

Gavin


Riley


Well, I'm off to shower, wake Glenn up and head off to see MY SONS, yep, still sounds weird.

See you at the next update!